Thursday, December 27, 2012

The Golden Moment

Gentle readers, as a gift from me to all of you, I offer a short holiday story set in the same world as my book, The Marvelous Land of Ap. I hope everyone has a joyous Christmas and a fabulous New Year.
Warmest regards,
George R. Shirer
 
THE GOLDEN MOMENT
A Holiday Tale of the Marvelous Land of Ap

It had been a hard winter in Ap. Thick snow blanketed the land and the River Surprise had frozen, so that a fat man could walk from one bank to the other without fear of falling through the ice. The days were short, the nights were long, and both were frigid. It had been a season of raging blizzards and creeping ice-fogs. No one went outside unless it was necessary. Some people decided to take sleeping potions and snooze their way through the bitter season. Most folks remained awake, to watch the hands of the calender-clocks creep toward Spring. However, before Spring could arrive, Winter had to end, and tonight was the night of Winter’s End.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Free Book for Kindle

Hi folks!
Today and tomorrow, I will be giving away the Kindle edition of my latest book, The Marvelous Land of Ap .

* * * * *

 
Charlie has lived in the Marvelous Land of Ap since he was a teenager. He doesn't miss the world at all.
Ella has just arrived in Ap, and can't wait to go home.
Until that happens, Charlie has agreed to look after Ella.
Unfortunately, this arrangement gets complicated when Charlie's duty takes him, a reluctant Ella, and a young boy named Thimble from the safety of Ap, into the uncertain dangers of the Dustlands.
 
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As you've probably figured out, it's a fantasy, more Wizard of Oz than Lord of the Rings, and available at fine Amazon websites everywhere. 
 
Still alive and giving it away for free.


Friday, December 21, 2012

(Fiction)On His Feet

ON HIS FEET

It happened at three in the morning, the midnight of the soul. Jack was awake when the sure knowledge that the world was going to end just landed in his brain. He blinked and lay in bed, staring at the bedroom ceiling. Next to him, Pam muttered something in her sleep, then grew quiet.

For a minute, Jack thought about waking his wife. They had been married for fifteen years. Three years too long if Jack was going to be completely honest. Still, shouldn’t they be together at the end?

No, decided Jack. Let her sleep.

Carefully, he climbed out of bed and left the bedroom. He walked to the kitchen and took the chocolate cake out of the refrigerator. Grabbing a fork from the air dryer, Jack walked out onto the porch.

He sat in the rocking chair Pam had bought him as a gag gift for his last birthday. The joke was on her, though, as the chair had become Jack’s favorite. He dug into the cake. It was cold and a little dry, but not bad.

Overhead, the stars were winking out. In the distance, the world seemed to be growing vague and indistinct, quietly drifting away into mist and shadow.

Jack didn’t feel afraid and he wondered about that. The idea of death had always frightened him, mainly because there was no guarantee that there would be anything after it.

Now, though, he knew with bedrock certainty that there was something. That knowledge removed death’s sting.

He ate another forkfull of cake and watched the world come undone. The moon drifted away into white smoke. Down the street, the new condos evaporated.

The end drew near. Jack put aside the cake and stood to meet it.

And, as it swept over him, as Jack faded into mist and shadow, he wondered.

What happens next?

He was looking forward to finding out.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Scott Mils & His Pigs in Blankets: The Perfect Christmas Single

I heard this the other day and thought it was pretty darn good.  Will it have staying power? Who can say? But I do love the word, 'frankincensensational."

The link will take you to YouTube.

http://youtu.be/vSScxSSP5Nk


Still alive and (gasp!) actually enjoying this Christmas season.

Monday, December 17, 2012

The Fall Back

Ladies and gentlemen, over the last couple of weeks, I’ve been telling fortunes at a couple of parties. It’s fun, easy money and gives me a chance to meet some new people.

This past Friday, I worked a party that I had been laughingly referring to as ‘the cougar party’ all week. The lady who hired me was definitely the cougar type. A real man-eater although I didn’t realize how big a man-eater until later.

I left early to make sure I could find the address. I’m glad I did as the house did not meet my expectations; it exceeded them. It was a rambling, two-story brick set in a very chichi neighborhood. A country club, thoroughbred-horse-raising sort of neighborhood.

I wasn’t certain I had the right address until I rang the front door and there was my employer, La Cougar. You would probably recognize the type if you saw her. Older, tan, moisturized, oozing confidence and surrounded by a cloud of expensive, floral perfume. Every strand of her platinum hair was in place and she wore a strand of pearls around her neck that she would toy with all evening.

She led me into the living room, an open space with pale walls and pastel-colored, soft furniture. La Cougar’s guests were obviously cut from the same cloth as herself. They sat around the glass coffee table, sipping cocktails and quietly congratulating the guest-of-honor on her recent divorce.

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I was working a ‘divorce party.’

The fortune telling went over well. The ladies were relaxed and amused. They wanted to know about their love lives, their sex lives. Would they get married again? Would the trip to Spain work out?

As the night passed, the wine flowed and the ladies became more relaxed. More salacious. The conversation drifted to talk of husbands, ex-husbands, boyfriends and even the occasional liaison. It was informative, if not always flattering.

After I had finished the last reading, La Cougar took me by the arm and led me into the dining room to pay me. She was very relaxed at this point, leaning into me. Her words were a little slurred, her fingers toying with her pearls. She sent her housekeeper to fetch her checkbook and patted my arm, told me how pleased she was with my performance and that she would recommend me to all of her friends. Even if she was genteelly tipsy, I think she was sincere.

The doorbell rang just as the housekeeper returned, but one of the guests announced she would get the door. La Cougar started to write me a check when her guest returned, followed by a young man wearing a Domino’s delivery jacket.

The young man, said the guest, was lost.

"I have a special delivery with extra sausage," explained the delivery boy. "But I don’t know where it goes."

He walked up to the guest of honor, a plump, pink older lady.

"Could you tell me where it goes?" He asked her.

At which point somebody turned on the stereo and the guy began to strip.

La Cougar had been writing my check, but the minute the stripper began to dance, she lost all interest in paying me. She was too busy staring at this young, lanky, blonde boy peeling his clothes off.

The housekeeper shook her head and led me into the kitchen. We sat at the kitchen table, where she proceeded to have a glass of wine, while looking through the shutters at the action in the living room.

"Scandalous," she said, shaking her head. But she had a little smile on her face when she said it.

From the noise in the living room, it looked like it’d be a while before La Cougar returned, so I asked the housekeeper if she wanted her cards read for free. She declined, saying she didn’t hold with fortune telling. However, I couldn’t help but notice she had no problem ogling the stripper. Or opening another bottle of wine.

The wine loosened her up some and she told me about La Cougar. How she had been married and widowed three times, each of her husbands richer and older than the last. No wonder she could afford such a nice house.

After a while, the music and noise from the living room ended. La Cougar returned, face flushed, eyes bright, patting her hair into place. She apologized for keeping me waiting, but she hadn’t known her friend had hired the stripper. Then wrote me a check and showed me to the front door where the stripper reappeared, mostly dressed, clenching a handful of cash. We walked out the front door together.

"Do you work for that lady?" the stripper asked me, looking at me, trying to figure out what someone like me could possibly be doing for La Cougar.

"She hired me to work the party," I explained.

He gave me a funny look. "What do you do?"

"I tell fortunes."

"Oh. I thought you were another stripper."

I just looked at him. "You’re kidding. Right? Is there a demand for fat, white strippers?"

He thought about it for a minute then said, "Probably."

So, gentle readers, if the writing thing doesn’t work out, I may have something to fall back on.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Fighting the Darkness

Over on Facebook a friend of mine reacted to news of the Connecticut elementary school shootings by voicing the opinion that we live in a sick and broken world.

In the face of such horror, as happened in Connecticut, it’s difficult to argue with that opinion. It doesn’t help that the media bombards us with awful stories on a daily basis.

However, I think it’s important to point out that, especially at this time of year, the world is not an awful place. I genuinely think that people are a little kinder around Christmas, that they become more self-reflective. We all try to be better people at this time of year.

I think that, in light of today’s events, perhaps especially because of today’s events, that we need to be mindful of the goodness in the world and in ourselves. We need to foster it and make it grow, we need to spread it to the people around us.

I don’t think you have to do anything big to do it either. Hug your kids. Tell your wife that you love her. Sit down and talk to that coworker who looks ground down.

Do something good.

Be kind.

Fight the darkness.

If we don’t, who will?

Monday, December 10, 2012

Let's Get Physical!

Hello, gentle readers. How is everyone doing today?

I’m doing fine, thank you for wondering.

This weekend was fairly productive for yours truly. I got the critique/proofread of my upcoming book, The Marvelous Land of Ap, from my new Editrix this past Friday. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. My Editrix caught a couple of things I’d missed, made some suggestions and, generally speaking, did not have to use the whip.

Hurrah!

Saturday, I worked on the book a little, but most of the day was devoted to pleasure and indolence. Basically, I spent the day lying around, eating potato chips and browsing Amazon.

Yesterday, however, was very busy. I decided to test the waters with CreateSpace for The Marvelous Land of Ap. And I can say, with some authority, that using CreateSpace was no more stressful than preparing e-books for Kindle.

Amusingly, after correcting my page size and uploading my files, I realized I needed to add page numbers to the book. I’ve gotten so used to reading on Kindle and having it auto-save my place, that the practical purpose of page numbers completely slipped my mind.

As I type this, the author’s proof of my book is being printed. I should have it in my eager little hands in a few days and, if it passes muster, I’ll have a print-on-demand book ready for the masses.

Hurrah!

Still alive and saying 'hurrah!' a lot!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Choices

This blog entry is dedicated with sincere affection to Anna, Dot, Molly and Laverne. The B-listers. Long may they rock!

This weekend I drove up to the mountains to spend some time with an old friend, Anna. She’s in a band and they’re heading west, stopping off at cities along I-40 as they trek toward Los Angeles.

It was nice to see Anna again. The last time I saw her, I was pretty sure I wouldn’t see her again. I had resigned myself to that, so when I got her e-mail telling me that the band would be in Cherokee for the weekend and would I like to come up? I was caught off guard.

Still, I figured what the heck? Hopped in the car Saturday and drove to the mountains.

I thought the band was playing a gig in Cherokee, but it turned out they were just enjoying a final, lazy weekend before they start heading across the country. We got to hang out, go to dinner, lose some money in the casino.

At one point, there may or may not have been a game of strip poker. I will never say for certain.

I was invited to stay the night, but decided against it.

When I left Cherokee that evening, there was a haunted moon in the sky and an invitation buzzing in my ear.

A year ago I’d driving across the country along I-40. Earlier that evening I’d told the ladies some of my experiences.

They asked if I’d be interested in heading cross-country with them. Basically, I’d be a roadie, helping set up at gigs and taking a turn driving the van.

Ladies and gentlemen, I’m not going to lie and say I wasn’t tempted.

As I drove home that evening, my feet itched. I’ve got a mild case of the wanderlust and the thought of traveling cross-country again is appealing. Lately, I’ve been thinking how much I’d like to return to San Simeon, revisit Solvang and the Painted Desert.

There were sights I missed the first time round that I could catch this time. The Winchester House. The London Bridge in Lake Havisu City. Las Vegas.

However, I knew as soon as I got behind the wheel of my car and drove out of Cherokee, that I wouldn’t be taking the offer. It would have been a lot of fun traveling along I-40 with the band. We got on like a house on fire.

But I want to do what I want to do and, this month, that means returning to work on Dawnwind: Resurrection. That story has been lying, patient and still, in the back of my mind a long time and now it’s starting to get restless. It wants attention and I want to give it to it.

So, I declined the offer to live a rock-n-roll lifestyle, to travel cross-country in a van with four very talented and very sexy ladies, setting up amps and living off truck stop food. Instead, I’m going to focus on finishing Resurrection and getting The Marvelous Land of Ap out there for the public.

We all have to make choices.

This is mine.

I don’t regret it.

Much.

Still alive and rocking to my own beat.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Supporting Wikipedia

Gentle readers, I'm not an easy touch when it comes to charities. Too often donations wind up paying for administrative costs and not going to the people who need it. Nevertheless, as someone who routinely uses Wikipedia as a jumping off point for research, I felt inclined to make a donation to them.

They sent me a very nice automated response which I am sharing below with all of you.


Dear George,

Thank you for donating to the Wikimedia Foundation. You are wonderful!

It's easy to ignore our fundraising banners, and I'm really glad you didn't. This is how Wikipedia pays its bills --- people like you giving us money, so we can keep the site freely available for everyone around the world.

People tell me they donate to Wikipedia because they find it useful, and they trust it because even though it's not perfect, they know it's written for them. Wikipedia isn’t meant to advance somebody's PR agenda or push a particular ideology, or to persuade you to believe something that's not true. We aim to tell the truth, and we can do that because of you. The fact that you fund the site keeps us independent and able to deliver what you need and want from Wikipedia. Exactly as it should be.

You should know: your donation isn’t just covering your own costs. The average donor is paying for his or her own use of Wikipedia, plus the costs of hundreds of other people. Your donation keeps Wikipedia available for an ambitious kid in Bangalore who’s teaching herself computer programming. A middle-aged homemaker in Vienna who’s just been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. A novelist researching 1850s Britain. A 10-year-old in San Salvador who’s just discovered Carl Sagan.

On behalf of those people, and the half-billion other readers of Wikipedia and its sister sites and projects, I thank you for joining us in our effort to make the sum of all human knowledge available for everyone. Your donation makes the world a better place. Thank you.

Most people don't know Wikipedia's run by a non-profit. Please consider sharing this e-mail with a few of your friends to encourage them to donate too. And if you're interested, you should try adding some new information to Wikipedia. If you see a typo or other small mistake, please fix it, and if you find something missing, please add it. There are resources here that can help you get started. Don't worry about making a mistake: that's normal when people first start editing and if it happens, other Wikipedians will be happy to fix it for you.

I appreciate your trust in us, and I promise you we'll use your money well.

Thanks,
Sue Gardner,
Executive Director,
Wikimedia Foundation

Still alive and feeling charitable.

Monday, November 19, 2012

A Demonstration of Writing by the Seat of One's Pants

Hello, gentle readers!

I just sat at my computer and realized, "Oh hell! I have to do a blog entry!"

And, so, here we are.

I have nothing prepared.

Nothing.

Nada

Zip.

My brain is as empty as a politician’s promise.

But still, here I am, pounding away on the keyboard producing something.

That’s the secret, you know, to being a writer.

Just write.

You don’t have to have anything planned out, you can just sit down and start to write and see what happens. It’s a bit like procreation, I suppose. Or parenting. You just sort of do it and wait to see the results.

If you’re lucky, you produce a healthy baby who will grow into a productive member of society. On the other hand, sometimes you create monstrous freaks who would make Freddy Kruger wet his pants.

It’s sort of a crap shoot.

You’ll have a lot of writers who say you should plan everything out. I don’t agree with that. Personally, I’m a write-by-the-seat-of-the-pants kind of guy. I’ve tried to do the layout thing and it was hell. Pure hell. I felt like I was doing homework. Math homework. Which was no fun at all!

Math sucks.

I’m not just saying that because I was bad at it.

Unless your job calls for it, it’s unlikely you have ever had to use geometry or calculus. Right? Right.

I always liked English even if I didn’t particularly care for most of my English teachers. They were sort of crabby, the lot of them. However, if I were locked in a building with a bunch of moody teenagers all day long, I’d probably be crabby too.

Or an alcoholic.

An alcoholic teacher who would eventually wind up in prison or something.

Hmm.

I think I just gave myself an idea for a story.

See what happens? See how this works?

Just write.

You never know where it’ll take you

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Free!

Today, my novel, Dawnwind: Last Man Standing, is available for free via Amazon.
If you have a Kindle or the Kindle ap, you can download the book for free until around midnight.
Why should you bother getting it?
Well, let's take a look at the reviews. Shall we?

"An excellent read that reminds me at once of stories told by A.E. van Vogt and Robert A. Heinlein - it is that good." - T.S. Sofia

"Dawnwind: Last Man Standing is the best science-fiction novel I have read in years!" - E. Meyer

"Good plot, great characters and fantastic story!" - Jim Powers

You can find more reviews on the book's Amazon page, if you'd care to peruse them.

Still alive and thanking you for your patronage.

Dawnwind: Last Man Standing - Amazon US - http://www.amazon.com/Dawnwind-Last-Man-Standing-ebook/dp/B00887FGQK/ref=la_B005EZ4W9Q_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1353003969&sr=1-3


Dawnwind: Last Man Standing - Amazon UK - http://www.amazon.co.uk/Dawnwind-Last-Man-Standing-ebook/dp/B00887FGQK

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Comfort from the Unexpected

The other day I dropped off a copy of my most recent book with my Aunt J. Aunt J is my mom’s older sister. She lives in the countryside, in a large house, and sells flowers.

Although a great reader (she can finish a 400-page book in a couple of hours), Aunt J has never really read stuff in the genres that I write in: fantasy, science fiction, horror. Nevertheless, she has always expressed a great deal of interest in my writing. A while back I left my Kindle with her for a week so that she could read my first book, Dawnwind: Last Man Standing.

I was genuinely curious to see what she would make of it. To my surprise, she liked it.

When I finished my current book, I decided to print out a copy and leave it with her to read at her leisure. This book was quite different from my other, as it was a fantasy inspired by Alice in Wonderland, The Wizard of Oz and similar stories.

This afternoon, I stopped by Aunt J’s for a visit. She told me she had sat and read the story all in one setting, that she had really enjoyed it.

Then my aunt said something that caught my completely off guard. She told me that she thought her father, my maternal grandfather, would have really liked the story.

"He would have read it," said Aunt J, "and I know we would have sat at the kitchen table and talked it to pieces."

Of all the feedback I could have gotten from my aunt, of all the possible things she could have told me, this just caught me completely by surprise. It was a fly ball coming out of the sun and wacking me right in the head. That single sentence just left me seeing stars.

Not a lot surprises me. To be honest, a lot of the time I think I’m less jaded and more callous toward what the world gives us. Fifteen years of having insane people swearing at you and threatening you can sort of calcify your soul. The news doesn’t help, as it’s always bad news except around Christmas, when the newscasters blow the cobwebs from their cold hearts and do fuzzy, saccharine-sweet human interest stories.

I’m inured to death and destruction. A hurricane slams into New Jersey and New York? Eh. It’s bad, I guess, but I don’t know anyone affected. Where’s the remote? What else is on?

A military convoy is ambushed in Afghanistan? Soldiers have died? Haven’t they been dying since we went there? The damned politicians aught to get us out of there. What’s the point? Hey, look! Lindsey Lohan got arrested! Again!

Buildings collapse on innocents. Wars flare in distant parts of the world. Disasters strike close to home and far away.

Eh.

It’s all business as usual. I remain untouched.

But the simple comment that my Aunt J thinks my grandfather would have liked my story hits me like a bullet. Even now, hours later, thinking about that fills my stomach with warm, fluttering butterflies.

That hard shell that’s formed over the years has had a hole blown right through it. I am left exposed and wondering.

The world still has the capacity to shock, to strike us to our core with the unexpected. This is a good thing.

Perhaps I am not as callous or jaded as I have thought.

The thought is oddly comforting.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

November in Black

November.

October and December are festive months, but November is not.

November is all business and her business is dark.

Picture a tall, lean woman with skin like white snow and a severe black haircut. A Patrick Nagel illustration, all whites and blacks, come to dreadful life.

On the seasonal clock, November is equivalent to three in the morning. She is the midnight of the soul, that dreadful hour when people rise from nightmares only to discover loved ones have died.

November sits in a dark office, occupied by sleek furniture made of glass and steel. A gas fireplace burns blue at her back, not so much casting light as spawning shadows. The room is cold and full of sharp echoes.

There is a painting hanging above the fireplace, a famous Russian triptych depicting a sleigh racing through a dark night pursued by slavering wolves. A woman tosses an infant from the sleigh, to the wolves, in a futile hope that the babe will be enough to distract the predators and let the sleigh escape.

November is very fond of that painting.

It makes her smile because she knows the ploy will not work. The wolves will catch up to the sleigh and consume the travelers. Then, the wolves will turn on each other and all that will be left is the cold darkness.

Yes, November is very fond of that painting.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Heartfelt

Hello, gentle readers, and welcome to another fine Monday. I hope you had a good weekend, because I certainly did.

I got my first check from Amazon.

It was not a huge check.

I cannot suddenly retire to an Italian villa overlooking the Mediterranean, or anything, but it has provided me with an eerie sense of validation.

When I opened the envelope, I had this Sally Fields-like moment: "They like me! They really, really like me!"

Of course, being the soul of dignity, I did not tear up or anything like that.

And I know that I should not need the sales of my stories to validate myself as a person or a writer, but as I’m being very honest here, I have to admit that it helps. I’ve never been particularly insecure about my writing, not until my most recent project, but it’s gratifying that complete strangers find my work interesting enough to purchase. It gives one a nice little ego boost.

So I want to take this opportunity to say "Thank you!" to everyone who has downloaded my stories. You’ve pretty much made me feel like a real writer.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I think I have something in my eye. . . .

Saturday, November 3, 2012

A Review of Wreck-It Ralph

Once again, gentle readers, I think I am going to be out-of-step with the mainstream.

This weekend I went and saw Wreck-It Ralph, and left the movie feeling perturbed.

The basic premise of the movie is that a video game villain, the eponymous Wreck-It Ralph, wants to be a hero and sets out to fulfill his dream. However, his quest brings havoc to the whole arcade where he lives.

Personally, I thought the movie sent mixed messages. On the one hand, it encourages people to accept who they are. However, on the other hand, it repeatedly tells people not to buck the system, not to try and change themselves because it’s impossible.

This last is a crap message, especially to give to impressionable little kids.

What? You’re in awful circumstances, so you shouldn’t do anything about it? Your parents are beating you, your teacher is touching you, but don’t make a fuss. Don’t rock the boat. Just endure because that’s what people are supposed to do.

This is a bullshit message to give to little kids, but it’s pretty much the idea that I got from this movie.

Was the movie entertaining? Eh. It was okay. Nothing to really write home about. The animation was standard, the voice cast was okay. The story felt predictable, and, at times, I thought it dragged.

On my Media Scale of Movie Love, I’d have to give Wreck-It Ralph 3 out of 10. Between the message and the content, I don’t really feel like the movie is theater-worthy. Wait for this to come out as a rental.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Hope

Good morning, gentle readers. Welcome to another Monday, here on the blog.

I cannot speak for anyone else, but October has been an unpleasant month for me. I’ve been ill. First with a very bad cold that continues to linger and then, on top of that, I somehow managed to pull something in my back leaving me with twinges and muscle aches. At the moment, as I sit here typing this, I am sucking on a cough drop, smeared with Ben-Gay and have a Heat-Wrap secured around my left arm.

Somehow, in the space of twenty-nine days, ladies and gentlemen, I have degenerated into an old man.

I feel a bit like October has betrayed me this year. Usually, I’m in fine fettle, but this month? Aches and pains, unexpected financial expenditures, a run of unpleasant if not exactly bad luck. I am half-tempted to go out and get a rabbit’s foot.

I feel a bit traitorous admitting this, but I think I shall be glad when October is gone this year. This year, she’s been a bit of a bad houseguest.

Still, as her time draws to a close, she seems to be gentling a bit. Just a bit. Enough to remind me why, muscle aches and coughs aside, I do love this time of year.

And, I’m not sure, but as grim November approaches, it feels like the scales are trying to balance. It feels like things are returning to some semblance of normal. Knock wood.

We can only hope.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Oh Child of Mine

OH CHILD OF MINE

Still your thoughts,
oh child of mine.
Rest your head,
upon my breast.

Hear the angels,
sing your name.
But always know
I love you best.

Close your eyes,
oh child of mine.
Let no worries,
crease your brow.

The sun has sunk,
the moon climbs high.
And I will love you,
‘till I die.

Weep no more,
oh child of mine.
Your fever’s broke,
your hand is cold.

You are forever
my little love,
and now you never
will grow old.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

History

HISTORY

I drove 200 miles to see you
Drawn by nostalgia and sense memories:
Nails raking my back;
Apple shampoo smell in your hair;
Laughter, high and sharp as breaking glass.
We have history together,
You and I.
We were like France and Germany
During World War Two.
Only I forget who was who.
Who invaded?
Who resisted?
What was our Normandy?
Were our friends Allies or Axis?
I don’t remember.
Chalk it up to shell shock,
The passage of years,
Early onset dementia,
Or too much whiskey.
It doesn’t matter.
We’re not those people anymore.
We’re older and grayer.
Hopefully wiser.
But there were hints of the woman you were
In the toss of your hair,
The rough calluses on your fingers,
Your jacket patched with duct tape at the elbows.
After you played your set,
We talked and smoked and drank
Until I knew it was time to go.
You asked me to stay,
But I remembered our history,
And didn’t want to repeat it.
When we said goodbye,
When we hugged,
You felt slight in my arms.
Thin.
Ephemeral.
And I had this sense,
That I would never see you again.
That this was it,
The end of our history.
So I wrote this down,
In the early morning hours.
Because history should not be repeated,
But neither should it should be forgotten
And I want to remember.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

(Fiction) A Murder Story

A MURDER STORY

Redmart was a Wal-Mart wannabe, a chain of stores in the southeastern USA. At the time, they were best known for their generic products and selling a tainted dog food that left dozens of pet owners bereaved and angry. Joey Schoemacher never dreamed of working at Redmart. He certainly never thought he would die there.

Still, there he was, flat on his back in Electronics, his life pouring out of him from the gash in his throat. Lying on his back, the last thing Joey saw was his killer standing over him, head tilted to one side, as if perplexed by the results of his own actions. He still clenched the knife in his right hand.

Then the lights went out and seventeen-year-old Joey Schoemacher was dead. It was after midnight and the store was quiet. Joey’s corpse wouldn’t be discovered for another hour. By the time it was, the Redmart Killer would have claimed three other lives.

* * * * *

"Jesus fuck," muttered Sanduski. He cupped a hand around his lighter, to shield the flame. "Why the fuck do you have to haul that story out every goddamn year?"

Frick grinned. He had a smile like a broken brown fence. "‘Cause they never caught the son of a bitch, did they? People who forget the past are doomed to repeat it."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. Save it for the fortune cookies."

Sanduski finally got his lighter to spark. He shoved his cigarette into the flame and gleefully sucked in a lungful of sweet, sweet nicotine.

"Just sayin’," said Frick.

"Well don’t say anything else. It’s bad enough we’re in this fucking tomb tonight. I don’t need you telling ghost stories."

"It ain’t a ghost story, it’s a murder story," said Frick.

"Whatever. Just shut up and turn on the radio."

Shrugging, Frick turned on the radio. Hip-hop poured out of the speakers. Scowling, Sanduski twiddled the dial, until he found a talk radio station. Some wannabe Art Bell was on the phone with a geezer who claimed to have seen the Virgin Mary in a pancake or something. Frick rolled his eyes.

"I’m goin’ for a walk."

Sanduski grunted. "Don’t let the bogey man get you."

With a snort, Frick flipped Sanduski the bird and headed out on his round.

It’s been eight years since the Redmart Murderer killed four people in the wee hours of the morning and got away clean. The store never recovered. People didn’t want to shop in a place where a bunch of folks got murdered, not even in the bright light of day. It was like the air was tainted. After a while, Redmart shut down the store and tried to sell it. However, nobody was buying. The place’s reputation was made. The old Redmart store at Aurora Park was bad juju. Stay away.

Stuck with the store, Redmart repurposed it. They turned it into an overflow warehouse, stuffing it with off-brand merchandise not even their most loyal cheapskates would buy. It accumulated there, in the dusty dark until someone at corporate remembered it existed and sent a truck to haul some of the crap away.

Frick didn’t work for Redmart, but a local security firm they contracted to guard the place. Vandals had broken into the old store a while back and there seemed to be a constant stream of dumbass kids who tried to get into the place on a dare.

Still, as gigs went, Frick kind of liked working at Redmart. The history of the place didn’t really bother him, not like it did Sanduski. Sanduski never said it, but Frick knew that this assignment gave him the heebie-jeebies. The fat old man wasn’t the only rent-a-guard who felt that way either. It was always a pain in the ass for the company to find people to work the place, especially during the anniversary of the murders.

Frick wandered away from the security office. Once upon a time it had been the cashier manager’s office, but since then it had been converted for the security guards. It had a bank of CCTV monitors that showed grainy black-and-white images of the store exterior. That was about as high tech as security got around here, and there always had to be one man watching the monitors while the other was making the rounds.

Frick made his way past the empty checkout aisles, long silent, their conveyor belts covered with dust. The checkouts were supposed to be removed ages ago but that had never happened. The shelves and fixtures had been yanked out, leaving the interior of the store a gutted shell that was jam packed with pallets of Chinese-made dog food and knock-off floor cleaners. Pallets formed a maze, dusty and dark, with unexpected turns and twists that changed every time the trucks arrived to drop off and take shit away.

Frick didn’t like going into that maze. He wasn’t the most imaginative person in the world but he could easily see one of the poorly stacked pallets sliding, see himself crushed beneath a shitload of laundry detergent.

Fuck that.

He and Sanduski just walked around the maze, ignoring the interior. For all Frick knew there could have been a tribe of hobos living in the heart of the maze. As long as they didn’t make trouble, he wouldn’t have cared.

The fork lift drivers left a wide lane open around the edge of the store. This was the route that the guards used, walking from the old checkout lanes past what had been the grocery aisles, the media department, the auto department, the electronics department.

Frick paused.

Electronics.

The overhead lights didn’t work any longer. When they burned out, Redmart didn’t see any point in replacing them. Frick waved his flashlight around, the bright beam cutting through the shadows, illuminating stacks of cheap-ass tires and boxes of crappy coffee makers.

Joey Schoemacher had been killed here. He’d bled out his life on these grimy garnet tiles, his killer standing over him, watching him die. The cops knew that because they found the same bloody footprints at all four murder scenes. Almost gleefully, the media reported that the Redmart Killer had traipsed through his victims’ blood without any apparent qualms.

Frick walked on, completing the circle, checking the doors. It was raining outside, the dregs of Hurricane Oro sweeping up from Florida.

"Not a fit night out for man nor beast," said Frick, peering out the loading bay door.

He stood there for a while, breathing in the wet night, then shut the door and went on his way.

It was funny the things that stuck with ya, thought Frick.

Everybody remembered Joey Schoemacher’s name, because he was the first murder victim, but nobody remembered the others.

Their names came back to Frick as he wandered through the dark.

Neal Stevens. A skinny old black dude. Killed in Gardening with a pair of hedge clippers.

Margaretta Wood. Queen-sized mother of two. Found in Ladies Apparel, strangled with a pair of XXX-large panties.

Charles "Charlie" Dint. Retiree. Devoted husband, dad and grandpa. He had an icepick shoved through his heart in Kitchenware.

Frick shook his head, feeling an unexpected pang for the four people. Ahead, the security office was a friendly little pool of light. Suddenly, Frick didn’t want to be out here in the dark, thinking of dead people. He wanted to be around the living. He quickened his pace, hurrying toward the office and Sanduski.

The fat man looked up from a newspaper. "You took your time."

Frick shrugged.

"You remember to lock the loading bay door?"

"Yeah."

"Good." Sanduski grinned. "Wouldn’t want some psycho fuck breaking into the place, would we?"

"No," said Frick. "We wouldn’t want any more."

He thought of Schoemacher again, remembering the stunned look on the kid’s face as the knife cut through flesh. The spray of blood as the artery was clipped.

They’d all had similar looks on their faces, as they died. No anger or fear, just surprise. None of them had expected it.

Frick looked at Sanduski. The fat man had gone back to reading his paper, his back to Frick.

Would he get the same surprised look on his face? Frick wondered.

There was a pair of scissors in the desk drawer. Sometimes, Frick used them to clip coupons from the paper. He opened the drawer and pulled them out now, admired the way the light from the CCTV monitors made them flash.

It had been eight years. That was a long time between deaths for someone like Frick. He tightened his grip on the scissors, walked toward Sanduski.

"What time is it?" asked Frick.

Sanduski looked at the digital clock below the CCTV bank. "Almost midnight. Why? You got a hot date or something?"

"Just an anniversary," whispered the Redmart Killer.

When he struck, Sanduski looked just as surprised as all the others.



Friday, October 19, 2012

October Riding Shotgun

Nine P.M. on a Thursday night and I’m driving down a black highway, Mozart on the car radio, October’s fingers caressing my cheek. The season has crept inside the car and sits next to me, riding shotgun.

October’s hair is a riot of oranges and reds, her eyes are leafy brown flecked with tawny gold, her gown a diaphanous black shroud that shows off her legs. October has great legs.

She smiles and leans close, whispers in my inner ear, incomprehensible secrets of the fading light, the growing dark, the mysteries written across the sky in the smoke from a thousand chimneys. October smells like candy corn and apples left on the tree just a little too long, sweetness going to rot. Her breath is cider, strong and sweet. She tastes like Halloween and her skin is chilly.

We drive through the night, toward the bonfire glow of city lights. October laughs and stretches her arms over her head. She gathers the last dregs of summer in her black-nailed hands and crams the light and warmth into her mouth, devouring it. In our wake the shadows thicken and things take shape, we are the head of a phantom parade, birthed of the dark and the dying light.

October drapes an arm across my shoulders and smiles at me. Her black gown shifts, sliding down, exposing her pale throat, the gentle swell of breasts. She blows me a kiss, full of dreadful promises and sweet memories, and is gone as quickly as she came.

Nine P.M. on a Thursday night and I’m driving down a black highway, the radio switched off, wishing October could remain a little longer.

Monday, February 27, 2012

So, it's been about six months since my last post here and I'm thinking I should probably delete this blog. But I know that as soon as I do, I'll want to know about something I posted here. Heh. Isn't that just the way?
Still alive and, well, pondering. - G.